Sunday, June 21, 2015

Happy Father's Day my Love!

This is a painting I did in May of 2014 and gave to Aurelien last year for Father's Day.  It is not my best work, but it is still cute and very meaningful.

I will repeat what I said last year, as it was perfectly said and I can't say it any better:

"Father's Day is so bittersweet for me as I have many painful feelings associated with my biological father. Story I've been told is that I was madly in love with my daddy when I was tiny, and then he abandoned our family when I was 3.  I remember the fight over custody, and it is one of my earliest, and most terrifying, memories.  I didn't see my dad again until I was 11.  He came back for a grand total of 24 hours, making all kinds of promises to me.  We were super poor, and I wanted a bike more than anything, as my old one had been stolen.  He promised to buy me a bike.  I remember the next day at school how I felt.  So excited and overwhelmed with joy.  I ran out to my mom's car after school and she was all by her self.  I asked, "Where is dad?" She answered, "He left."  I WAS DEVASTATED.  I felt like such a fool, for trusting him so easily.

A year later he came back for a visit and I refused to talk to him.  So he left again, blaming my coldness. When I was 13, he came back again.  I finally caught on that he was trying to get my mom to take him back. I was having none of that!  I went on a week long camping trip with my best friend and I cautioned my mom before I left to not fall for his schemes.  I came home and he had moved into our house.  That was a disaster. I felt so uncomfortable and pretty unsafe having him in our home.  A few months later, he punched me in the face so hard that he knocked me over.  I fell into a deep depression, and my older brother reached out to me.  He told me if I ever needed a place to stay, I was always welcome to stay at his house, with him, his wife, and their 2 little children.  I took him up on his offer shortly thereafter.  I moved out of my mom's house when I was 14, and went through the courts to get myself emancipated.  My mom fought it, but I won.  My brother became my custodial guardian until I turned 18.

When I was 15 my dad started coming to my work to try and get me to talk to him.  At first I resisted it and wouldn't talk to him, but eventually he wore me down.  We started getting to know each other again, and spending quality time together.  I really grew to love my father during this time.  It was nice to see where some of my personality and other quirks came from.  When I was 16 my dad moved away suddenly without telling me and I couldn't get a hold of him.  He just disappeared.  I WAS DEVASTATED.  About 6 months later, I got a phone call from a woman telling me my father was in the hospital and was going to die.  Would I go and see him?  I did, and I made my peace with him before he died.  I told him that I forgave him for everything.  I read him the love chapter from the Bible, I Corinthians 13.  I sang "Amazing Grace" to him.  I wanted him to be at peace. He died the next day.  April 2, 1994.

Due to all this sordid, convoluted history it has been a lifelong vow of mine that I would have babies with a man who would be a wonderful father to them.  Ever since I first met Aurelien in 1997, when I was a nanny to his cousins, I have observed his soft heart and gentle way with children.  That is one of the biggest reasons why I fell for him back then, and why I continue to fall in love with him more and more every day.  He is the daddy of my dreams for our child.  William is incredibly blessed to have such an amazing human being as his very own father.  I wish I could have had a daddy like that.  But having a daddy like that for my beloved William is a close second!!!"

Thursday, June 18, 2015

Catching up!

Sorry about that little hiccup/month long hiatus from posting.  Like all working moms with a toddler, I got super busy and overwhelmed there for a little while!  No worries though, since I work as a substitute teacher, I am off for the next 3 months for SUMMER VACATION!!!!  Yay!!!!

So here's some scrapbook pages, I have about 100 done that I need to photograph and blog, which will take me some time, but here are a few just so you can see that I'm still alive and well in blogland!




Enjoy!  There will be more to come as I continue getting caught up in the weeks to come!

Sunday, May 24, 2015

Life is Always So Much Fun!


Playdate with our cousins, awesome as always.

Dr. Appt, visiting grandma, eating yummy pho at Me Kha

Trying to observe Papa at the dentist, on the merry go round with mama, and feeding himself greek yogurt like a big boy! Late May 2014 with our beloved son!

Monday, May 18, 2015

Suzi Blu Gypsy Retreat

This was awesome!  I got to meet one of my very most favoritest artists, Miss Suzi Blu!  What an honor to be able to learn from her in person!!!!!  One of the coolest things I have ever done!!!!!

Friday, May 8, 2015

Spring Playdates! Bubbles and Boys!


Meeting new friends at the neighborhood park, hanging out with the cousins, and the baby gym and lunch with Shelly and Alex!  Good times!!!

Monday, May 4, 2015

Au Revoir Mutti!

Farewell Mutti!  See you in August in France!  Thank you for the lovely visit!
Bella the bunny, church, teaching a cardmaking class, and Papa showing William a little woodworking.  cool stuff!




Monday, April 27, 2015

Guy Stuff

William had a lot of fun when Papa had his Cacti Club Meeting at our place.  While Papa did an awesome job teaching everyone how to graft Cacti, William chowed down on all the yummy party food!  And mama just laughed and took the pictures!!!